Hi, I'm mcss.
Developer, creator, and someone learning to be kind to himself.
I build software, explore ideas, and navigate the human experience. Welcome to my quiet corner of the internet.
Developer, creator, and someone learning to be kind to himself.
I build software, explore ideas, and navigate the human experience. Welcome to my quiet corner of the internet.
Building
Venoly & SCSA
Learning
Compilers & Systems
Training
Muay Thai & Gym
Listening
Pastel Ghost
Mood
Creating & Reflecting
Streak
2,000+ days
Since Nov 13, 2020
Behind the projects, usernames, and technology is simply a person who values people. I enjoy conversations, learning about others, and hearing different perspectives. I believe everyone has a story worth listening to.
Something people sometimes misunderstand about me is that I can seem quiet, dry, or distant. But that doesn’t mean I don’t care. The opposite is usually true. I genuinely enjoy talking to people and building real connections. I may not always express it perfectly, but I value the people in my life deeply.
Life has not always been easy. I’ve experienced difficult periods, loss, loneliness, and the heavy, quiet weight of depression. There have been times when the world felt overwhelmingly loud, and my own mind felt like the hardest place to be.
Those experiences were painful. But I don’t believe people are defined only by their worst moments. I believe growth comes from being honest with yourself, learning from mistakes, and choosing to improve, even when it’s hard.
Those dark periods carved out a deeper capacity for empathy, patience, and understanding within me. They taught me to be kinder to myself, and more compassionate toward others who are fighting battles you can’t see.
A direct readout of the mind and the machine.
> developer
> builder
> engineer
> creator
> human_in_progress
Active builds:
- Venoly
- SCSA
- Myself
> 17 critical system failures.
> 17 Suicide attempts.
> 17 attempts at getting my life right again.
Status: Rebuilding. Getting better now. Still running.
"The hardest bug to fix is the one hidden in your assumptions."
— mcss philosophy
The mental operating system. Not a list of skills, but the principles that drive how I process the world and build within it.
I like knowing why something works, not just making it work. The foundation matters more than the speed of execution.
Technology should solve real problems and improve people's lives. If it doesn't serve a human need, it's just noise.
Code, metal, machines, photography... everything improves through repetition. There are no shortcuts to genuine competence.
The moment curiosity disappears, growth stops. Asking "how does this work?" is the engine that keeps everything moving forward.
The simple feeling of creating something that didn't exist before. Taking an idea in my head and turning it into something real.
Curiosity turned into a daily practice. Started solving real problems and understanding how software systems are structured.
Faced difficult periods, loneliness, and depression. It was painful, but it fundamentally reshaped my empathy, teaching me that healing is not linear, but it is always possible.
Expanded beyond code. Explored welding, cars, and physical engineering. Realized that building a machine and building an app share the same fundamental logic.
Started building my own programming language. A deep dive into compilers, logic, and expressing creativity at the lowest level.
Focusing on Venoly and meaningful creation. Choosing to improve, practicing patience, and becoming the person I want to be.
"A platform created because online spaces should feel safer."
More than just a project. I created Venoly because I believe people deserve a place to communicate while feeling respected and protected. Privacy and safety matter, especially for the vulnerable.
"Learn. Experiment. Improve. Create."
My own programming language. Building this was not just about the technical challenge, but about understanding how things work at a deeper level and creating something that came entirely from my own ideas.
Whether it’s a program, a machine, or a piece of metal, I enjoy understanding how things are made. These aren't just hobbies; they are how I stay grounded, clear my head, and remind myself that progress comes from showing up consistently.
Mental clarity & presence
Meditation in motion
Capturing quiet moments
Understanding mechanics
Perspective and wonder
The soundtrack to creation
Storytelling and escape
Appreciating craftsmanship
Every person has value, and everyone has a story worth listening to.
Kindness and trust are the foundations of any meaningful connection.
Creating things should ultimately help people and leave them feeling a little better than before.
I don’t believe people are defined only by their worst moments. Growth comes from being honest with yourself and choosing to improve.
The future I want isn't only about success. I don't dream about being remembered only because of what I built. I want to be remembered as someone kind, trustworthy, and someone people felt comfortable around.
I want genuine friendships. People who enjoy talking, even if it’s only for a few minutes during a busy day. People who care, and people I can care for in return. I want to build meaningful things, enjoy meals with my family, spend time outside with friends, and appreciate the simple moments that make life meaningful.
A successful life, to me, isn't measured only by achievements. It's measured by the people you share it with.
If you are carrying something heavy right now—depression, dark thoughts, or just an overwhelming sense of loneliness—I know the standard internet advice is to call a hotline or speak to a professional or some other bullshit.
But I also know a deeper truth: sometimes, what you truly need is a genuine human connection, a friend, a homie, a person for life, ur buddy, best friend, You don't always need someone who is paid to listen to you You never should. You need a genuine friend. Someone who actually cares about you, not a ticket, a quota, or a session.
If you are struggling, please reach out to a friend you truly trust. And if you don't have one right now, or if you just need to know someone out there gets it: you can reach out to me. i am always available.
I might not have all the answers, but I will listen without judgment. I will care. You are not a burden, and your story is not over.
You matter. More than you know.
Message me on DiscordThere's something deeply calming about coding while it rains outside. The world gets quiet, and my mind follows. Today I spent hours refining the core logic of SCSA. Progress is slow, but it's real, and that's enough.
Had a heavy day recently. The kind where getting out of bed feels like a task. Went to the garage and practiced welding anyway. The spark, the heat, the absolute focus it requires—it forced me to be present. It reminded me that improvement in any craft, whether code or metal, comes from patience, failure, and practice. Even on the bad days.
Current Atmosphere
Pastel Ghost - Shadows